I Have To...

Yesterday, I felt I was flying because emotions can't be contained anymore....
Today, I felt I was falling because emotions are now drowning me even more...

          I have to admit that I have made drastic choices in my life. As temperamental as I am, I expect results far beyond what I already grasped and I never failed to do so.
          I have to admit that I have imperfections to correct. But never have my neurons processed what I have just proven: "they will pull you down". 
          I have to admit that I defend sometimes my isolated standards. But I cannot internalized that they are so unrealistic, viewing the world into a tight, selfish perspective.
          I have to admit that I am immature. One time, I found out they have immaturity, too.
          I have to admit that I have never been a good son. But in my experiences, tantamount to the reality, have they been good to me?
          I have to admit that I am impulsive. Later on, I have seen  them as not like me, but far worse than me.
          I have to admit that sometimes I am so unfair. But you have to agree, when does life seem to be fair?
          I have to admit that I sometimes see the practical reason. But their wisdom sometimes cannot see it for their reason is based on experience. However, the experience may not be suitable for all of us.
       
          I have to argue the point that you need to accept your own fault,too. It is mot harmful.
          I have to let  you see and read this because in totality, you must and you should.

Yesterday, I am just like a blind and mute.
Today, this blind and mute may slap and shoot.